Putting Fluffy on hold for a bit

Good Morning to all,I have to admit the Positivity Plan has been blown completely out of the water, have no energy to exercise 2 times a day, or even 1 at this point, no desire to read, mentally exhausted.., I spent yesterday so pissed off due to the rudeness that I experienced and the games people play that I feel that I need to take a breather..deserted Island would would be super at this point. This blog is supposed to be about motivation and positive actions and I am honestly just not feeling it at this period in time. When I get to a better place I will start writing again. I wish you all a good Wednesday.

Missed a day...oopps..was 'On the Road again'!!

Good Morning all..sorry for yesterday but was driving all day..once more I find myself in Kaiserslautern..was really not wanting to leave home again so soon as I was only there for a couple of weeks but..what are ya gonna do?? Work is work, mine just happens to be several hours from home.
So, what have I learned over the last couple of days??
1. That people actually work for the normal, everyday middle class as concierges, doing eveything from organizing taxes, gardening, shopping..you need it done..they can do it.I found this interesting.
2. That there is a 50's themed diner in Germany...the fasination here for all things American is interesting, kind of like a strange love- hate relationship.
3. That there is a difference in the definitions of Envy and Jealousy, and even better there are 2 types of Envy..benign and malicious. Envy is wanting something that someone else has and jealousy is being afraid of loosing something. Malicious envy is the act of hurting someone to get what you want..(that they have), and benign envy can actually be positive..to work as motivator, to make you work harder for what you want.
So, new day..time to learn something else..we are taking our physical fitness test this morning..so morning workout will be done early! If yesterday was any sign the weather should be gorgeous over the next couple of days..lots of outside time in the late afternoon!!
Have a great Saturday..

New word learned....

Good evening to you all..due to a challenge from one of my very dear friends and follower of Fluffy I will be posting everyday what I learned the day before..yesterday I learned the meaning of a new word..while reading posts on..of all places..facebook.. I came across the word ENTROPHY..this was (before yesterday) one that I had never seen before. So, googled it and found this definition 'Enrophy- is a measure of the specific ways in which a thermodynamic system may be arranged, often taken as a measure of disorder, or a measure of progressing towards thermodynamic equilibrium.' with furter reading I learned that a German Physicist, Rudolf Clausius (1822-1888) is considered to be the quote unquote father of the concept of entropy.
So..first thing learned, not bad for day number 1!! As for creating, I made homemade bread today, and for color..well here you have it..and I am wearing a tshirt with bright blue writing on it...paired with pink fuzzy socks!! Got my hair cut yesterday and took a nap today as well as called my parents for some positve reinforcement..that always makes my day better, even when all is not so hunky dorey thay always help me put things into a better perspective. 
Finally recieved a letter from the youngest today, he is in Basic training..was happy to hear from him..ARMY STRONG!!
So, wonderful people..I am off to make dinner for my hubby and settle in for the evening..be blessed and hug someone you love!! 

Positivity plan....los gehts!!

Good afternoon! As promised..my Positivity Plan.....

1. 3030  as mentioned yesterday-study Bible for 30 minutes everyday
2. Pray and journal daily..as many times as needed
3. Listen to more music and watch WAY less TV
4. Purge house of unused items..clothing, dishes, whatever
5. DO NOT PROCRASTINATE
6. Drink 2 liters of water daily..this is great except for around 0400..;D
7. Blog daily
8. Take better care of myself..by this I mean more girly things like getting my hair cut on a regular basis, doing my nails, taking long walks....
9. Learn something new everyday..through reading, exploring, talking to people, internet search, reading the back of a cereal box..whatever works
10. 2 exercise sessions daily
11. Get outdoors as much as possible
12. CREATE!!!!!!
13. Incorporate more color into my life..

So, there we have it..putting into action..will keep you all updated on how this works for me.

Tuesday..a new day..a new attitude??!!

Good Morning..for all of you followers of Fluffy you know I have really been going through a hard time recently..I have been letting the actions and decisions of others steal my happiness, my positivity, and my sense of worth and well being...So, today I am going to try something new..I have broken out the bright colored gel pens and have started to write out a Positivity Plan, I have 7 points on it so far and will list them all for you later today or tomorrow when I finish organizing my thoughts, actions, and goals. On thing that I have commmited to is a 3030 plan created by Joyce Meyers, it is a challange if you will of reading and really studying the Bible for 30 minutes for 30 days. I am, sadly one of those when things get really rough I tend to back off on my conversation time with God instead of ramping it up, like a small child I get my feelings hurt and feel like I am being punished when things start going wrong and I tend to pout and isolate..so, lesson here..try something new..increase my time and effort spent and see what happens.I am going to start with the book of Psalms, not for any special reason other than it has has always been my 'go to' when I need inspiration and a sense of peace.
I have to be honest here, I am feeling a bit lost in the moment, no kids at home, no school to prepare for, no daily structure outside of this house..I need something but I do not know what it is..my husband tells me to take some time and 'come down' from my previous hectic existence but it is not so easy for me to do..I am trying though. Of course I know all would be easier if things were in order and all was well in my world but it is not so I struggle..but will keeping trying. So, this morning I am going to attack downstairs, do a little rearranging and cleaning, work up a sweat on the treadmill, walk my dogs, and then leave the house for the first time in a few days..I hope all of you have a wonderful day.

Okay..so we are not the Easter Bunny but oh so cute!!

 Hallo liebe Leute!! I want to wish you all a very happy and blessed Easter..Have included a bunch of photos for you all today, lots of sweet babies , finished projects, and flowers, flowers, and more flowers!!As you can see Max, Marli, and Melissa are enjoying the good life..no worries here!! I am continuing on my new journey to a life filled with not so much stress..the Sererity Prayer has come in pretty handy over the last few days..for those of you who are not familiar...
God, grant me the serenity to change the things I can, accept the things I can't and the wisdom to know the difference.
I am beginning to come to accept that I (we)..but as this is my blog and not my husbands... cannot please everyone and to understand that I alone am not responsible for other people's actions, reactions and decisions..at times this really causes some pain but I have come to a point in my life that I no longer want to compromise my life and my well being (we are talking mentally here folks..)

 for the fact that just because others expect certain things it does not mean that I have to jump when plans are made and fingers are snapped. With the changes and issues that we have had to deal with for quite a while now and the fact that certain things have finally blown up both my husband and myself are learning a very precious lesson..and that lesson is how to say NO!! We are lucky enough to have a few..and I am talking a very few people in our lives that understand and do not give us a bunch of grief when we say that we need time to ourselves..and for those people I am grateful..they understand that the world does not revolve around them and their desires..
When I liquidated our lives in the states little did I know that my life journey would be taking me down these paths that we are experiencing..I was expecting to be a slightly high strung girl from Texas who loves people and likes to have fun transplanted into another country and that all was going to be peachy keen and life would be filled with unicorns and rainbows..little did I expect what started about a month after we arrived..it has not been easy and continues to not be easy but I have learned alot about myself and how to deal with not so pleasant issues  (yes..this does include taking a time out..for as long as I need)..in the states I would have probably said 'peace out' long ago and moved to another part of the country..the beach is sounding really good about now.... but living here has helped me to mature and grow as an individual..mature is the key word here..as I have been made to stay put and deal with a bunch of crap..of course most of the crap (not all ...mind you) never would have occured previously but as we say in this house 'it is what it is'. At any rate I am super blessed to be married to this man.. who..bless his heart had no idea whatsoever he was getting himself into as he also expected the whole rainbow and unicorn senerio..but hey..I must say, despite all of the crap..trying to keep it clean here as it is after all Sunday..we are growing closer as a couple..
So, I think in my next life I will become a psychologist..too late in this one!! As far as Fluffyseekingfirm..the time on the treadmill has been boosted up to 60 minutes a day..so far that is equals out to a little over 7 kilometers..not so fast but over time the distance will increase..increasing the crunches and have incorporated a balance ball into the mix also..at the end of the day I am wiped out..but at least sleep is once more becoming familiar..pretty 

 excited about that fact. Below are pics of the completed wine rack..all decopouged out..as you can see..I don't use it as a wine rack but for a cookbook holder..so a totally custom peice for about 20 Euro. I am loving the results. Today is a good day, the sun is shining, we are here together, planning to grill, have heard form my oldest son..hoping to hear from the other..Wishing all of you a wonderful day with whoever you spend it with..or maybe you are taking the day to do nothing and enjoying the peace of being alone..that too is completely okay!!

Putting on rain boots.....

 Hello to you all..sorry about missing yesterday..was having a pity party day but with the help of some emails and a good long conversation with one of my girlfriends and coming to the realization that I am not reponsible for others peoples actions or decisions..oh..and the fact that the sun has finally come out and I am able to sit outside to write this..I am striving to push the negative thoughts and worry out of my head..really..
In an email I recieved this morning it had a quote in it..'Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass..it is about learning to dance in the rain.' So for now..in this moment I am mentally looking for and putting on my rain boots to do some dancing. My real rain boots are a boring tan color but in this case we will pretend they are covered in bright colored flowers.
As, promised when the tulips that we planted last fall bloomed I would include pics..here are a couple and onr of the wine rack that I have decided to focus some of my energy on..I have to admit..decopouging is a great way to loose yourself for a couple of hours

at a time..should be finished with it in a couple of days..will of course post pics of the finished product. With the main situation that I am dealing with right now e few people have told me that I have to 'let go and let God' am trying hard to do that but it is much easier said than done..it is times like this that I would give anything to have a church to go to where I could loose myself in singing praise and worship songs..way too unconventional for where I live now but it is nice to wish for something..there is a Christian misic festival in Chattanooga every year called JFest..I went to it for several years and I must say seeing so many people together singing and worshipping is pretty awesome. Brings a sense of renewal and fresh air to your everyday doings. Okay, the wind has blown the clouds back in..it is now officially too cold to sit outside..so..until tomorrow..have a blessed day.